Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Little D May 20, 1999-July 6, 2011




Every time I lose one of my babies I write their story so I can put in their box so in case I, or someone else, want to read it I can.

Sorry if this story doesn't make much sense and just rambles. I know I have forgotten things and possibly will add more when I remember but for now here is Little D's story.

Where do I start with Little D and his story. He has lived such a long life with us that I don’t even know if I can remember that far back. 12yrs is a long time for a dog to live, in this house. ;)
I don’t even remember WHY I wanted to get a little dog. We already had a black lab/golden retriever mix female dog. I guess I just made the mistake and went into the Northtown Mall in Blaine, Mn and saw that little dog looking back at me. I told Michael he was just the cutest little dachsund I had ever seen and I WANTED him. Michael resisted, like he always TRIED to do, but I asked the woman to get the little puppy out. She put him in Michael’s arms and Little d just started licking Michael’s face. That was it, he was going home with us. I think he was about 6-8wks old. He was a chihuahua/dachsund cross. He looked more like a dachsund than like a chihuahua. I remember walking him thru the mall and everyone looking at him and how cute he was and smiling at us as we walked thru the mall.
I think before we left the mall we had named him. Michael named him, as he named so many of our animals.
We had a friend living with us and we pulled up to the house and he just shook his head like he couldn’t believe we brought ANOTHER animal into the house. Of course he grew to love Little D just as much as we did.
I remember I had to show my parents and so they came over and mom and dad had ice cream. My dad sat down on the steps and Little d decided he wanted some too but my dad growled at him and scared him. I think that is what started the life long hatred of men. It was funny at the time but that little dog was really scared.
I did EVERYTHING you could do wrong with Little d that anyone could do wrong with a dog. I never took him into public and I never took him to puppy school. Never socialized him at all. He HATED to ride in the car because it just terrified him because every time we went into the car he had to go to the vet, another thing I did wrong! He would shake and shake and drool and everything. It was just really sad.
I remember taking him for his first distemper shot and bringing him home and he had an allergic reaction to it. I was freaking out. I knew NOTHING about dogs at this point. He had a huge knot at the vaccine site. I rushed him back into the vet and from then on he had to have a shot before his shot. LOL. He was always really good when we got there but as soon as we walked in he would defecate and urinate all over. 
I remember I was working for a vet clinic at the time he needed to get neutered and so I had him neutered at that vet. He was the BIGGEST cry baby ever! He just whined and screamed the whole night. I couldn’t even take him out of the kennel because he was such a big baby. It was a sad night but by the next day everything was fine.
He went thru so many foster animals and our OWN animals. He had a “wife” named Snickers and we gave her up and then he had gotten another “wife” named Roxy Roo. He watched her go on our living room floor. His best bud, KoKo, he watched leave this world on the living room floor also. All the foster dogs that came and went I’m sure he was thankful that he never had to leave.
Yet, there was this one time that someone had called and said we had too many animals so animal control told us we had to get rid of some of them so I decided that I should let Little D go. Well, I didn’t last long. I was SO depressed and I cried and couldn’t bare to have Little D gone so I called the woman I had given him too and she brought him back to me. As soon as he walked thru the door I bursted into tears! I told him I would NEVER EVER do that to him again, EVER. The thing is I lived up to that promise. I would go on vacation at times and when we moved in May of this year they had to be at the house(that he grew up in) for about a week or two but there was STILL someone there and we were there at night with them. He was freaking out because he didn’t know what was going on and why all the furniture was disappearing but it was ok when he got to come to the new house. He was SO happy to be back with us. I don’t know if the stress of the last month was what made his heart go bad or what. I guess I will never know.
When we had big dogs he would always go into their kennels and curl up and get the kennel to himself! He didn’t let anyone else get in there. It was pretty funny.
He LOVED to go outside in the summer time and take a tan. He would stay out there for hours upon hours. We had a wooden picnic table that he would sit on and be king of the house.  Yet once it hit below 70 you would not see him at all. It was just too cold for him.
He would always find the hole in the fence too, if there was one to find. He always kept his daddy on his toes to keep that fence fixed!
Every time Michael and I would say that he was a “crazy dog” he would get all crazy. It was so very cute!
I would whine and cry like a puppy and Little D would howl. I was never able to get that on video and now I’m sorry I didn’t.
Although we never ever really taught him any tricks he knew how to “sit pretty” for his food, crackers, or any food! He could hear a cracker wrapper from a mile away! He was very smart even though we never taught him anything.
He had the BIGGEST ears. We would call him Yoda all the time. It was very hard to a picture of him though because every time he heard the camera open or beep he would run away. LOL.
I remember when we first got him we had some ham and I thought I would let him have it. Well, that little dog bloated like you would not believe. Puking all night and everything. He was SO miserable but we learned our lesson that dogs can NOT have ham or at least as much as he got. Yet, every time we had ham he was right there! I guess he didn’t learn his lesson.
A few years ago my friend called me up and said that she heard what Little D was officially called. He was a chiweenie! We laughed and laughed and laughed so hard about that! We never knew that there was an actually “name” for his breed. I guess I had a designer dog all along!
I remember he would get up right next to us to snuggle under the covers at night. He would sleep so tight up against you that it was hard to move. Yet he was always so warm. I loved when he snuggled with me.
For being a mix, puppymill, petstore dog he never had any health issues! It was amazing and I was always telling people that.
I remember sometimes he would run out the door and all I had to do was say, “Little D come see momma, hurry hurry hurry.” And those little legs would just RUN as fast as they could to come and see me. Sometimes Michael wasn’t able to get him inside and that’s all I had to say and he would turn and run towards me. Michael would just shake his head and couldn’t believe that’s all I had to do.
Michael said today not even 5 minutes before he passed Little D asked to go outside. He said he took him outside and he walked around the fence area, ate some grass(like he always did), and went to a pile of dirt, put his front feet on the dirt mound, put his nose to sky and then looked at Michael. Michael said, “Yep, you’re king of the hill!” I think that Little D was communicating to God at that point and we just didn’t know it. I was taking a nap but I heard Michael take the dogs out. Sasha and Jersey came back to the bed with me and then I heard Little D pacing in the hallway. I thought it was MoMo but then I figured out it was Little D. Then all of a sudden I heard a yelp or yip and I jumped out of bed. Jersey and Sasha at the point were barking and Michael said MoMo was barking and trying to get Michael’s attention. When I jumped up the 2 girls followed me into the hallway. In the hallway right in front of the door was laying Little D. He had deficated and was just laying there not moving. I screamed at Michael and Michael came over and asked what the hell was going on. Then Little D’s breathing got labored. He didn’t drool, didn’t growl, didn’t cry again, didn’t have any blood, no white gums, NOTHING. Just laying there. Not even seizure activity. I just petted him and started crying knowing I was going to lose him. Michael said, “Damn it, D. Dying like my dad did in the hallway by a heartattack!” That was really hard to hear. I told him to just not fight and just to go and that we loved him. Odd thing was that earlier when I had went to take a nap he jumped on the bed and snuggled with me like nothing at all was wrong. It was all so sudden. I guess if I had to choose I would want it more like that than any other way. I wrapped him up and took him outside and as soon as Michael stepped outside to lock the door a hearse drove by.
I called my mom and she said that she knew something was going to happen today because things were so quiet at her house and yet there were some unexplained noises. She also felt nervous. She cried with me. Michael cried too.
We will miss you, Little D, D.D., Little Dog, Little Devil, Little Dachsund, Little Daddy’s dog, Little shit!


Sunday, June 26, 2011

Again it is calling

My hubby and I went on our very first vacation that was just the two of us with NO children or grandchildren. It was much needed and a very good vacation, if I do say so myself. :)
While we were on our vacation I did have a few experiences. One was at my hubby's mother's house. She had brought out some cufflinks that had belonged to her father and she wanted my hubby to have them. He brought them in our room that night and I had some major things going on! I had things sounding like they were being dropped but upon investigating, NOTHING. A young man kept falling me! A little boy sat at the side of the bed, licking a lollipop, and staring at me! It was just all very terrifying! Somehow this was related to his grandfather's cufflinks but I'm not sure if it WAS his grandfather. Very interesting though.
Before I left on vacation I had to go to my friend's parent's farm and "read" their barn. They have a spirit in there who has done some things in the past and they just wanted to know who it was. They have named her Claire. She loves chickens and has been making herself noticed because she doesn't like the gate they have in a particular area because that use to be a doorway and now it's blocked. Very nice woman. Now I'm suppose to go over and see if she is OK with the name they gave her. :) While there I "read" their grandson and he is still trying to figure out who is with him. Will have to sit down with him and his mother, I think, to get to the bottom of who this person is!
While on vacation I was able to visit my parents and my mother wanted to know how I saw with her so I was able to tell her. Plus, I found out that the woman who I had always thought was watching over our family was NOT who I thought she was. I had always thought, from what my hubby had described, that it was my maternal grandmother. My mother has a picture of her mother and then of her father's mother. My hubby saw these pictures and asked if my mom had a picture of Grandma Ruby(the woman who I thought was watching over us) on the fridge. I told him that she did and so he took me in the kitchen and said, "Is this your Grandma Ruby?" OMGosh! NO, it was my paternal grandmother who I guess my mother and myself look like. It was a truly interesting discovery!
Now, I am back from vacation and I have some people who want me to do a reading. Not sure what they are looking for but will help if I can.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Money making

On Monday, March 28th 2011, I went and read a house. I was very excited because I hadn't done a house reading for a while. It was a very interesting read. The person who is there is related to the woman of the house, it's her aunt. Her aunt is pretty active and likes to do things to the couple. Meaning she opens cabinets, doors, turns on alarm clocks, etc. She isn't trying to be scary she just wants to be remembered. There is also a grandmother in the home as well who is also related to the woman of the house. The woman of the house was hoping to reconnect with a friend she had lost back in 2004 but I only was able to connect with her once I saw a picture of her. She died a very tragic death and I wasn't able to gather how she died but I did pick up waves of water but that she didn't drown. I'm not going to say how she died out of respect for the family and friends but just trust me it wasn't pleasant. :( At the end of the reading the woman gave me some money. I told her I don't take money and she shouldn't but she insisted. Instead of keeping the money I took the money and donated it to a friend of mine who walks in the Las Vegas AIDS walk for his late husband. I just felt this was the best thing for me to do. Karma I don't really want to mess with so if I keep Karma happy then I remain happy.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

New chapter in my life

We are going to be moving. My son actually is buying a house and we are just so excited about this. It's a rambler house which is going to be nice for hubby since he has RA and the stairs are just getting more and more difficult for him. :( All one level living. That's a MAJOR plus.
This move is going to be bringing changes in our lives and it's a little scary. Our 2 daughters and our grandson are going to have to get a place of their own because we aren't moving the whole family in with our son. The goal is to have the girls find their own homes and my hubby and I will live with our son for at least 3 years. We are going to have to rehome some of the animals, which is hard, but again it's a new chapter in our lives.
I also have taken an extended leave of absence from my work do to a break down. I am now seeing a counselor and so far I have learned:
1) I don't get enough solid sleep. I may be in bed alot but I don't sleep. I get too much interrupted sleep and so it doesn't allow my brain to rest.
2) I need to start learning to meditate. Well, that's not what they are calling it but it seems like that to me. I don't want to do this because then I start "seeing" more spirits but I can't very well tell the counselor that. LOL
3) I need to take a long hot bath, and do my breathing, at least every other day. Don't worry I actually take showers too when I'm not taking a bath so I'm staying clean. LOL. :)
4) I need to learn to say NO.
5) My children rule me. Gee, there's a shock.
6) I have been abused. I guess mentally. I don't remember any physical abuse. Again, no shock there I know that I have been. Now I just have to learn to "get over it"
7) Due to not sleeping the way I should my brain over thinks and goes to the "scary" places I worry about. So, the 2012 thing is driving me batty. So, when my brain gets fixated on this I must get up and do something else, like maybe exercise.
I'm sure there are some more things but I just don't remember.
Because I was a young mother and didn't party too much, and really never have been a big party person, I'm doing more of that. NO, I don't drink or anything but I have a new band I LOVE LOVE LOVE and every chance I get I go and see them play. I have also been to more concerts than I have ever been to and it's just WONDERFUL! I'm sort of doing the partying thing and it's pretty cool. I have often thought of sampling that beer, whine, wine cooler, here lately to see if I'm still allergic but just the thought of the consequence is not something I want to deal with. :)
I'm scared for my girls. Scared to move, but excited all at the same time. Scared to rehome some of my animals. Yet the fear is exciting to me. I know I'm strange.
Once my conseling is over, if it ever gets over, I will have to decide if going back to work is in my future. I have SERIOUSLY been considering getting paid for my "gift" but I still have a thing about that. Although there are so many gifted people like me and they are getting paid and still able to give what people want. So, I'm torn. Maybe I'm just getting more comfortable and confident in my abilities. Yes, I still get things wrong but I AM human, after all. :)
So, I'm accepting my new chapter of life. Bring it on, baby!

Another house reading

I'm going to be doing another house reading in the next week or so. I'm really quite excited because I haven't been getting very many of those. Most of the time the people want me to read them and let them know who is around them. That is just fine and I cease to amaze myself and usually the person I'm reading but I want to do a house reading. I'm getting my chance. Supposedly there is a spirit in the home and I guess at least one person has seen it but I don't know anything more than that. Which is fine, I don't want to know because then it isn't as real. I may also read the owner of the home too, but I'm most excited about this house reading. GO ME!

BINGO!

So, sometimes my hubby and I will go and play some bingo. We, of course, love it.
So, last Monday we went to play some bingo and all the time we were playing the man sitting across the table from me had a spirit bugging me to tell this man things. Luckily, I KNOW this man so after bingo was done I started talking to the man. Come to find out it was his grandfather. I actually made the man cry, which happens sometimes in a reading, but I felt bad. It was a good 2hr reading and I really think it went well. I love when I can make someone's night or day. Yet, at bingo? Really?